It’s been about four months since I graduated from UNC Charlotte, and I know that may not seem like a long time but it definitely feels like forever. While I was in school I was an English and political science major, but my real passion is writing. It always has been and I’m positive it always will be.
I’ve begun to notice all of the things my professors ever told me about when I was done with college are becoming true, even though I was positive they were wrong. One in particular sticks out in my mind.
“You have to write everyday.”
Now, I know I work for a newspaper so I do write almost everyday, but what I’m talking about more is creative writing – fiction or nonfiction. While in classes I always had assignments forcing me to continue writing and working and being creative. I no longer have that push, and without it I’m finding it extremely difficult to put pen to paper (fingers to keyboard) and write anything at all. I know some will call it writer’s block, but the wonderful Aaron Gwyn once taught me there is no such thing as writer’s block, only fear.
Honestly, I think the fear has overcome my creativity and it holding me back from anything. I know writers have to write bad things to get to the good, not everything everyone writes is brilliant, even for the most skilled writers.
My problem now is figuring out how to get past this road block. Join a writing group? Take classes somewhere just to force me to write? Or can I find the willpower on my own to get to it and stop putting off what I want more than anything in the world – to write something worth reading, something that changes the reader in some way?
Obviously I understand the first piece I write can’t do that, as far as being a writer goes I’m very young and nowhere near my potential.
And the problem with going to a class is, honestly, I feel like I would be dumbing myself down to enroll in a class somewhere. I’m an English major, the only classes I should be taking are in graduate school, right? Oh come on, you know I don’t really think that’s true. Maybe there’s also fear there in that I don’t want to experience rejection. No one does because it’s not fun.
I guess getting out my frustrations is step one, maybe now I can get over it and just write something already.